The real me....

Okay... Here it goes. David (godscountryboy.blogspot.com) posted the Real You challenge recently. I have struggled just with starting this post because I am the type of person who is constantly stuffing what they really feel, and put a nice smiley mask on. I will try to be as honest as I can....

Some of my biggest fears:
 I am very concerned with what other people think of me. I am always afraid that they will find out who I really am and could never like me if they knew.

One of the biggest ones for me is..... That I will never meet a man who will love me enough to want to spend the rest of his life with me, or, if there is one, that I will not like something that he does/likes, and could not see myself spending the rest of my life with him. Recently, I have come to realize the enormous commitment that marriage involves, and I cannot see myself loving anyone yet like Love is needed in a marriage. However, I also desperately want to get married.... (For the girls who understand this fear, pleeeeaaaase pray for me)

I doubt the love of God and am constantly afraid that He will give up on me (even though I know the scriptures about this).

I distrust the love of my family and, overall, distrust the commitment of all my friends. (This is my problem, not yours, by the way, for any friends of mine who read this....)

And..... One of my worst character traits is irritation/anger. I hate it, have prayed about it, and am not sure what to do.....another area for prayer.


Okay, I think those are my biggest baddest problems/fears.....besides the millions of "little" ones that I also struggle with.  All I can say is .... Please pray for and continue loving me.....

Just Like Jesus....

I am an avid fan of Max Lucado and I have recently been reading his book Just Like Jesus. Many of the things he says convict me and also help me to see the Bible and it's principles more clearly. I have been wanting to post more things that a important rather than just pictures and fun stuff, but finding computer time is so hard for me. I actually have a little time tonight though, so I will attempt to do a post on what the more meaningful parts of this book (for me) are.......

Chapter 1
A heart like His:

Christ love us just the way we are, but He doesn't want us to stay that way. He wants us to be just like Jesus. In the Bible, we see many picture that portray the heart of Christ.  He had a heart that was pure and peaceful. Even though He was loved by thousands and His disciples constantly were worried and arguing, He was content to live a simple life that refused to be guided by vengeance. He refused to be guided by anything other than His high calling.

Our hearts, on the other hand, seem so far from His. We are a greedy, cranky, earthbound lot that is so focused on self we frequently forget Him. However, as surprising as it may seem, we already have His heart. God promises that, when we give our lives to Him, He will give Himself to us and make our hearts His home. He lives in us, but the reason we still so often act like ourselves instead of  Him is because we are content to live with our souls saved but our love unchanged. We are connected to Him, but not altered. He has ambitious plans for us, and longs to remake our hearts. He wants to make us just like Jesus.

Tune in  next time for.... Just kidding. But I really will try to continue posting these chapter by chapter.